Thursday night

I'm at home with Keith tonight, he's sick so just little miss went to x's. I'll kinds of stupid BS with him...but he doesn't live here anymore so it's not that big of a deal. Match guy called on Monday and said he was really sick, talked about dinner tonight, but no call, so that's done. It all seems like such a waste of time, and I don't want to get all negative crazy but I am the common denominator, WTF? Boston guy stays in touch but lives in Pasadena and wife hasn't moved out...WTF. Oh yeah scg emailed me yesterday...sent me a pic of some big bruise on his leg. I replied that I hoped the bike was OK and he thanked me for repying. Whatever. Is any of this ever going to change? It's been about the same for a year. I guess it's my bad for doing the samething over and over. IDK.

What Next?

I wanted the new year to feel a bit different, but it doesn't yet. I guess there's time. Monday could possibly be the worst day ever at work. New boss hasn't approved my expense reports on stuff acquired in Nov yet and wants to discuss them with me tomorrow. Not good. Also I know for sure my numbers wont add up. Not good.

I went to lunch on Sat with the Match guy...cyclist/boob man and it was really good, I thought, best option so far, but he hasn't called yet :(. Had talked about dinner tomorrow and not sure what to do, Boston is asking about tomorrow too...not going to call but I just can't get used to the little pangs of rejection and uncertainty. It matters less but still happens.