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I went to Vegas on Thursday for "work" and hung out with Ethan on Thursday which was totally fun, kind of surprised how much fun it was. Not in anyway except for friends. Then Marie joined and we went to dinner....and then ran into Mac and Mike and went drinking/dancing. It was fun...Marie and I snuck off and went to bed around 230...next day room service, work and massage...lunch....rest/work...bad terrible voicmail.

From a cop about keith and then keith saying he was in trouble. he stole a bike with a friend and the parents were talking to a cop about their kids missing bike and then see Keith and his friend on it. I can't even explain how sick the whole thing makes me. I yelled and screamed at him...sent his dad over to do the same thing. I don't even know what to do about any of it. I haven't spoken to the police yet so waiting to find out what will become of that before I bring down the hammer. It's so embarassing to me. I have a kid who steals? Who doesn't know right from wrong? Who the F is this kid? Really deaply disturbing. Totally at a loss for what to do that will work. I know what to do for punishment, but what will work? FUCK! HELP! I knew something would eventually happen when I was gone and it's just maddening that he would make this kind of decision while I was gone, let alone make it at all. More on that to come.

so that kinda made the last night in Vegas wierd. I had foo fighters tickets so that was super fun! Drank, sang, jumped around, people watched. Ate too much.

And now we come to the part of our post where I recount my recent communication with super cute guy. He is making me feel very warm and fuzzy inside. Been talking about lots of stuff. Next week at this time I'll be hanging out with him after his race! I feel like a grown up about some of it in new ways too. He's trying to get his daughter to the event and instead of feeling like a brat who can't get her way (sleeping with him) I think it's awesome and special and important. There's another girl who quit and works with him now and lives near him. I know they are close and nothings going between the two of them, but she's not too happily married (according tohim) and definitely very protective of him and if his daughter goes to the race she's bringing her. It seems like an opportunity just to be a part of something with him. then the next week he's going to visit me which makes me feel excited and happy and warm. all good stuff that I want more of :)

Good stuff

today I wasted valuable work time IM'ing w scg and it was awesome. Just awesome. Asked a lot of questions about something he said about falling for another woman while he was married. he had said he missed a chance to be happy. I wanted to know if he really thought that, and he was very open/honest. I told him I didn't want to scare him off like it was an interview or whatever. He said I couldnt scare him off...liked me, liked getting to know me....lovely lovely lovely. He did say he was worried about the distance, can be lonely, didn't want to prevent me from finding something here....which maybe what he thinks about me and effect on his life. But said I wasn't waisting my time, couldn't regret getting to know him. maybe not the most logical plan, but thats how great things happen...looking forward to seeing him again, and take it from there. best plan ever. so most of all so happy i'm not crazy. just warm and nice. he asked about me being faithfull and tets not in the same sentence but generally sees we're too close....so tried to put it in context.