my back hurts

I have to have the bike adjusted. My back is killing me this morning after 2 hours on the bike yesterday. I watched Catch and Release last night which I wanted to see since reading the Kevin Smith diary, it wasn't bad, but of course made me cry....she had 3 guys after her (one died). I just think I haven't really gone through how sad the state of my marriage made me, I was so focused on survival I didn't realize that it made me so sad not to be liked by my husband for so long. I just don't get why someone doesn't care about me, but at the same time I somehow do get I am not in the right frame of mind today to create that. But will go to dinner with Asian guy....thought of emailing super cute guy something like "I'm on a date, but wish I was talking to you"....but will not.