WCS Hangover

It still stings, no call, no show, no email, no sms. I sent him one that said...I guess you decided not to come I wish you and kate all the best. No reply. I want to write a strongly worded letter. I want to lash out. I am not sure I have experienced intentional negligence and hurt like this. The idiots from the internet but there was no investment. I feel crazy like I imagined it or made it up and then I feel so misled because I didn't. It's easy enough to fuck and run, either one of could've done that, but he didn't. He said a lot of things about being in the middle of the divorce, being concerned with the distance, basically not ready, can't do it. But also siad he was and wanted to, I'm not sure what vibe I give off, Committment? In a way that's not bad, I don't want to really fuck around or be in something that is without potential...but on the other hand there seems to be miles to go before that. It's not easy to be avaialble and optimistic and willing and to have that treated unkindly seems so incongruous with a guy who's a good dad and by many accounts a great guy (not mine). I want to write a strongly worded email to that effect, but what's the point? Aplogies and any additional communication just masks the reality of it. I am still struggling with why I did that more than once. Also I hadn't met anyone with similar interests who showed interest in me and had mutual attraction. I met him 4 months ago, and in that 4 months no additional prospects...now what? back to internet? Just being lonely? lots of sunday nights at the movies alone? That makes me really really really sad. So I am going home....warm bed, kids, and radio silence.