I am not very good at lying around doing nothing, which is basically what's been happening today. I took the bikes back, which costs me $100 bucks. Can't ask Tets for the $ and can't see asking scg either. So that's a the price of what I needed to learn. I am still just achy over this whole thing. Did I make this whole thing up? did I make it all happen? Why am I in such a fucking slump right now? No calls, no emails, no nothing obvioulsy. Oh yeah...I hate facebook, like I wanna see his face and what he thinks right now? I kinda do but only if it's about feeling bad. I want a grand gesture, a big effort, but not gonna happen. I don't want to be a scum and not ask about his daughter, but I have already put to much into it, and that will open the door for me to do more of that. I really don't want to go to Japan tomorrow. This trip has shitty written all over it....I'm just gonna dive in and try and get through it.