I am so predictable

So I guess I'll be writing about the only thing I seem to write about...SCG emailed me for a while last, I was telling him I had a crappy day and was drinking alone...I said Hey. I called you today. Another item on my crappy list. He was all apologetic...I'm terrible with voice mail/phone, didn't check messages, don't take it personally. Said he'd call today, but he hasn't. Not looking good if it's 2 hrs ahead there. I'm getting that he might be right in some areas and not others, but I still feel gross about the one line thing and I always hate passing the 1 month mark with out sex...which I have passed. ugh, I didn't really realize that I was trying to keep something alive that happened a month ago. sad sad sad. blurg. Tomorrow Kayaking. I need to clean up the house as they're meeting me here, but I think I'll go to sleep and get up in the morning to do it.