another candle lit meal

tets came and thank god for that. He is truly my base right now and for so long and I am so greatfull for the willingness...we went over and over all the shit with SCG and no call/no show and he was exactly the voice I needed. Don't go to tomorrow but let him explain and make it up. Really finally heard me say I am the shit and if another person doesnt see that then I'm out. Got email from SCG...lost phone, Im sorry, blah blah blah....not sure if I buy it but willing to consider it. not sure what to do in the AM but ever ever ever so greatfulll for Tets and his infinite patience with my humanity. He's role in my life has never been clearer and with out conflict. I only wish I drank enough tonight not to blog...